Words Of A Broken Man
What is it to be happy? How does it feel to stop putting on a fake smile everyday?Hmmm...
These are the words of a broken man that has been through it all but still standing. Wondering when he'll stop just standing whilst everyone is out there enjoy their life...will he ever start moving? Will he ever spread his wings, fly and explore what life has to offer; or will his life just be the subject of endless heartbreak....
"Treat others how you would like to be treated"
That saying echos through my head, trying to live my life according to that saying but it comes to a point where you think what's the point when all the comes your way is heartache. Those that are meant to be there for you disrespect and look down on you; those you love question if your love is real even after everything you've done and are trying to do for them. Funny thing is when you're up there in the spotlight your wanted when you down needing help your left alone broken but having to put on a fake smile, can't let people know your slowly falling apart...not wanting sympathy from anyone, because when you've been broken to the extent I have you realise people are just shit and when given sympathy its just a halfhearted attempt to make you feel okay when it's far too late.
Sometimes don't you wish that you didn't care so much? Like every so often you'll say to yourself "yeah Fuck them I don't care no more" but then find yourself again caring. Like Fucking hell man don't you wish there was a button to turn of your emotions without any questions asked?
These are just the words of a broken man, a man who used to have faith and believe that there was good in everyone. Sadly you can only go through things so many times before you lose sight of what's really good in this world and realise you really are on your own.
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